Thursday, August 7, 2014

Camp Agape NW 2014

No news is good news, and Shoshana has been doing great!

She's almost weaned off of Gabapentin (for her neuropathic pain), and she will be finished (!!!) with chemo on December 17th of this year.

Camp Agape

A few weeks ago, the whole family (including Elizabeth's parents) got to go to Camp Agape Northwest.  Camp Agape is hosted by the Philoptochos Society, and is designed to support families with kids battling cancer, and give them a break.  Both of our girls had a blast.  They are paired with one-on-one counselors who engage with them, and play with them all day, all week, doing whatever the kid wants to do, among the camp's various activities and crafts, or in some cases, supporting the imaginative whims of the child. 

The parents are given somewhat of a break from the kids, and from the daily grind.  I (Tim) found it a bit hard to simply let our girls go off and play without me.  The girls and I love to be with one another, and so we were able to spend some time together.  I brought some board games and card games, and of course I introduced some of the counselors to Dominion after the kids were in bed.

The camp was a great time to get to know some of the other local families with kids battling cancer.  There were a lot of kids with leukemia, but also some with other cancers.  Most of the kids were in maintenance or monitoring, since you can't really go to a camp like this if you're in the middle of intense treatment, so we also had that in common.  Some of them we had seen or met while at Seattle Children's Hospital at one time or another, but of course when we were there we had a lot to worry about, and not too much time to slow down and connect.

There was a little bit of sharing.  The moms got to go out together one day, and the dads another.  I felt like it would have been better if the parents had been able to spend more time together in a structured way earlier in the week, since the guys dinner was on Thursday, and after that there was only one more full day of camp, but it was good nonetheless.  We'll need to put together a barbecue or something, in our copious amount of free time this summer (Ha!).

I think that the camp was well named.  Agape is unconditional love, and that was the love that we felt from the organizers, staff, and counselors.  No matter what situation we were in, we were showered with love, and nothing was expected of us, other than to receive it in blessing.

Going Forward

Stopping chemo in December will be wonderful and at the same time the thought of it makes my stomach turn into knots.  Chemo is dreadful, but it is also what is killing the cancer if/when it pops up from one of its indeterminate number of hiding spots in Shoshana's body.  Chemo is the training wheels.  Are there still leukemia cells lurking about, waiting to multiply in a few months?  In a few years?  We don't know.  We can't know.  We can only wait, and watch, and hope, and quietly put the matter in God's capable and loving hands. 

The worst part is, that if she does relapse, the standard response would be to attempt a bone marrow transplant.  The preparation for a bone marrow transplant is a month of chemo to completely wipe out the immune system.  The best tool available to accomplish this is (you guessed it) vincristine, the very drug that almost killed Shoshana, and devastated her nervous system.  We do not think that she would survive.


Trust can be a difficult thing.  We have no promise that Shoshana will be with us in five years.  Of course, none of us have a promise that we will ever draw another breath.  That's the way the world works, and that's how our lives have worked lately.  We thought that we would have a healthy baby boy in our arms in a matter of days, and then suddenly, he was gone.

The rule of this world belongs to one who is out to kill, steal, and destroy, and in it we have known death, loss, and brokenness.  We choose to put our hope in a God who in the ages to come will show us the riches of his grace in his kindness toward us in Christ Jesus, who has defeated sin and death.  Someday, when He makes all things new, we will have our baby Judah.  I hope and pray that regardless of how long she is with us in this life, Shoshana will come to share in the everlasting life of Christ

Pray With Us

  1. Thank the Lord for his church, who has shown us love throughout our difficult times, including the Philoptochos Society at Camp Agape.
  2. Praise the Lord that Shoshana has been doing so well this summer, and ask specifically for her continued health, healing, and protection from leukemia relapse.
  3. Lift up our whole family in grieving for our baby boy Judah Daniel who died during early labor in May.


1 comment:

  1. I appreciate your concise post - it is easier to remember, and how to pray. I also love the photos..the being together.
    We are so blessed and blessed to call you our friends, and pray for you more to your needs ( at least every night )
    Love, Kathy
    August 8
    Proverbs 8:11 Wisdom is more precious than rubies and nothing you desire can compare with her
    ( compare the cost )


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